12.27.2002

 

whoa. finally finished watching the epic Ran on AXN.. previously only watched the 1st half of it. its so cool, the way kurosawa adapts King Lear and makes it so totally japanese. and its from the time when having large-scale battles on celluloid mean having an enormous cast of extras..

i cant manage any intellectual discussion of the movie, but anyway here's a plot summary that actually covers all the essential plot details. tragic, powerful and moving.. strangely enough these words kinda complement each other.

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12.25.2002

 

merry xmas everybody! so this is late by about 30 mins.. i correct myself, happy boxing day!

been such a topsy turvy day.. i cant believe wat a klutz i am. seems like ive been goofing up presents ALL xmas long! yesterday (yesterday being the 24th), i mix up presents for my family.. and today (today being the 25th) i discover that i mixed up gifts for 2 of my close frens (which i incidentally gave out on the 24th, too). and so i go all into a fluster and into crisis-solving mode.. only to discover that i made a grand faux pas cos i din despatch the wrong gifts to both people - the said gift was with me all along! argh. confused? you should be.. i still am. and its basically cos all the boxes look the same except for the chi words on the outside which the salesgirl at leofoo village helpfully wrote for me.. argh... i just get this feeling that someone, somewhere, from up above is watching all this and can barely contain his/her laughter: its like a page out of some practical joke book. *groan* somehow the helplessness of the situation doesnt lend itself very well to being retold. bah.

im sorry for the paucity of posts since i came back from roc: been swamped with stuff, multitasking as usual.. video's due on the 10th and im still going thru, aka reviewing, all the 4h of footage i took.. havent even started the capturing or better yet, the processing. so every night im home sees me starting the night on a cup of Blue Mtn Ice Coffee (or whatever the Pokka consumerized mocha is called).. working til about 0500/0600 reviewing tape.. but after a while it degenerates into a 'quick fix' of warcraft 3 or gta 3 or (good grief) jedi knight 2 that persists until i KO.. all this courtesy of my dad's spanking new office com. ill wipe the games out later.. ho ho ho (and merry xmas! ha) .. collapsing into a safari bed - after ROC im a safari bed convert - and snoozing til midday or thereabouts. =\ hence im just plain tired and not getting any work done! help..

past week has been nice, met up wif so many old frens. somehow im just too tired to talk, much less converse with people, so im sorry if i rubbed anybody off the wrong way. i keep hearing that this xmas doesnt feel so xmassy.. it din feel that way yesterday but i guess now that xmas is over already, with the benefit of hindsight its quite paltry. that said it still beats the xmas i spent in perth: alone, friendless and worst of all, bored to tears, cos practically everything - restaurants, shops, u name it - was closed firmly shut. in a way thats good, since xmas is all about family and frens, but it can also isolate and totally disjoint somebody who doesnt belong there, whether theyre just passing through or whether they just cant fit in.

ooo thats kinda sombre. what to do? i just feel that way. sometimes i feel that i blog straight from the hip (um, thats a bad paraphrase of shooting from the hip... or whatever. u get the idea, i hope) .. i cant quite seem to muster anything that even aspires to be literary. its sad.

i know why xmas doesnt exactly feel very xmassy - theres not much music mags to buy anymore, ever since ministry (middle-of-road between sleazy mixmag and the totally music muzik) folded. the recession's taking its toll, cant go on mag sprees like i used to, which makes buying stuff a carefully measured decision (i sound so irresponsible saying that) and suddenly i dont just spring for muzik anymore.. not that i frown at its contents. theyre still good. its more of since i only buy for the cd i consider carefully whether i need it or not.. and right now all i want is the oct ish.

okay its late.. im gonna sleep. got a major prac test all of today n tmr. bleah!

nice song to mull over:

Avril Lavigne - Im With You

---

I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
Searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everythigns a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

---

night night. sweet dreams. i feel all warm and fuzzy now.. its the xmas mood. *hugz* all. =)

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12.15.2002

 

hi all!

i survived SPITFIRE..

72++ click of hell, high water and the freezing cold with anything between 30-40kg of load (estimates vary) interspersed with command tasks (ie 'tests'). man. that's all that's on my mind now - heck i was aiming for the toilet brush award, given to the last team to come in, since that wd actually mean i finished.. as it turns out my group was superpowered and despite starting 2nd last we were 2nd for more than 3/4 of the race - literally an amazing race - losing out in the end cos a) we slept too much (and therefore had a good time) and b) one of our members had terrible blisters and we had to slow down. for the record that isnt me, tho it *is* the first time im nursing blisters.

still in ROC now, 0th (extra) day of RnR. city of tou3 liu4.. pretty neat place, i guess, tho to be honest theres nothing much to do around here, things are seriously overpriced and given that this isnt e capital there isnt anything worth doing. camped out in a movie theatre n watched a doublebill of the sweetest thing - american pie for chicks - and e road to perdition, which is such a terrific show (and great for fathers' day, too). the blend of action and drama/bonding is near-perfect and i cant quite understand why anybody wd claim its boring. mm. i cant remember the last time i went to the cinema - mayhap the last film i watched was chocolat from way back? =|

bleah. running out of time, gotta head back. thats all from me for now til i find another net cafe.. bore y'all with more roc tales some other time. and to the diaspora heading home for the hols: welcome back y'all - esp to jiaying n zuan. welcome home. htat's something i hope to be doing soon!

Gemma Hayes - Ran for Miles

---

Well I got myself a new day
And I got myself a second chance
So I headed to the bus stop
And the sun, the sun was warm on my back

Today I ran for miles
Just to see what I was made of

Today I ran for all that was mine

Well I got myself a song inside
And I got myself some full blown daylight
Wanna tell you just how hard it's been
Trying to talk myself out of jumping

Today I ran for miles
Just to see what I was made of

Today I ran for all that was mine, yeah

Today I ran for miles
Just to see what I was made of

Today I ran for all that was mine
Just to see what I was made of

Today I ran for all that was mine, yeah

---

incidentally did i mention that gemma hayes looks exactly like the quintessential brit female? post a pix sometime soon. til then! merry xmas all..

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11.27.2002

 

gonna b late getting to the airport already, this is not good.
kay cya all

ROC 281102 - 191202.

cya when i get back

Chantal Kreviazuk - Leaving on a Jet Plane

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ooh

all my bags are packed
i'm ready to go
i'm standing here
outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say good bye
but the dawn is breaking
its early morn
the taxis waiting
he's blowing his horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die

*CHORUS
So kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe, i hate to go*

there's so many times i've let you down
so many times i've played around
i tell you now they don't mean a thing
every place i go i think of you
every song i sing i sing for you
when i come back
i'll wear your wedding ring

*CHORUS*

and now the time has come to leave you
one more time
oh let me kiss you
then close your eyes
and i'll be on my way
dream about the days to come
when i won't have to leave alone
about the times when i won't have to say...

*CHORUS*

i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe, i hate to go

i'm leaving on a jet plane
leaving on a jet plane x 9

---

timestamp: anonymous 15:27 0 comments

 

take that, jun! HAHA

timestamp: anonymous 06:30 0 comments

 

*dumbfounded*

never realised that dj shadow's "six days" that ive been gushing about is actually about (cue drumroll) WAR.. or rather the state of the world as it relates to wars being raged. heck, interpret it for yourself.

DJ Shadow feat. Mos Def- Six Days
from the album Private Press

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At the starting of the week
At summit talks you'll hear them speak
It's only Monday
Negotiations breaking down
See those leaders start to frown
It's sword and gun day

Tomorrow never comes until it's too late

You could be sitting taking lunch
The news will hit you like a punch
It's only Tuesday
You never thought we'd go to war
After all the things we saw
It's April Fools' day

Tomorrow never comes until it's too late
Tomorrow never comes until it's too late

You hear a whistling overhead
Are you alive or are you dead?
It's only Thursday
You feel a shaking on the ground
A billion candles burn around
Is it your birthday?

Tomorrow never comes until it's too late
Tomorrow never comes until it's too late
Make tomorrow come I think it's too late

---

gotta love artistes who come up with thotful stuff for songs instead of the formulaic boy/girlband stuff. not that i dont appreciate that, but theres a time and space (ho ho injoke) for each.. now's the time for thotprovoking stuff (if only to make up for the lack of it in prose on this blog).

incidentally, mos def is so cool! geddit? mos def? sheer ingenuity.

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*groan* inertia.. cdve blogged e past few days but din, simply too tired or too busy (packing for roc, or playing liero [a freeware version of worms thats a lot more chaotic since its not turn-based] *grin* ) so i guess ill make up for it today. had a lot of stuff to blog (notice how ive been saying that for the past month or two) but its more or less dissipated in the time between concept and bloggging, so as usual this will wind up being a short post.

still partially excited and mostly worried about roc.. shucks. i dont want to go further on this topic.. still feeling rather woozy from having an abundance of sleep for the first time in months.. itll be the last time ill get so much sleep til i come back in time for xmas. did i mention i have a major exam on dec 23?

failed a physical test on mon by a mere 20s (timing to meet was < 9:30, i did 9:50) - i should be kinda distraught since only one other person failed, but strangely im kinda happy - happy cos i never expected to pass in the first place and this timing far surpasses my own expectations.. on the other hand it does mean ill be doing it again post-roc, post-xmas. =|

there are no interesting thots id like to share for the moment

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11.24.2002

 

think my prediction of a blue xmas are gradually proving correct - inasmuch as i can foresee from now, of course - somehow i feel the distance between me and just about everybody i know/used to know. and normally by now id really be in a xmassy mood, yes, even last year, despite the culture shock when i first went in. theres no xmas wish list this year, there just isnt anything id particularly like to get. i dont fancy myself being particularly given to consumerism or rampant buying sprees either, so this could mean that im growing up... somehow theres just a dearth of stuff to get, or want.

random thot that cropped up in my head (that seems like it vaguely has value): its the little things that count in the end, i think.

melancholiness (melancholy? melan... how many variants of the word are there?) sets in.

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video editing just takes up too much of my time- ive literally just wasted away (as in, you know, *wasted* wasted) the last weekend before roc. every time i go on a saturday i inevitably keel over from the accumulated weariness and just drift off, head slumped over the keyboard, basking in the warm glow from the CRT. its terribly terribly sad - i know im on the verge between credible and annoying self-pity here - but i just cant help but feel sad for myself. somehow ive lost my tolerance for the cold, i used to be able to sit for days in absolutely frigid air con rooms and traipse about happily in winter, in snow, in nothing more than 1 layer of clothes (um, long sleeves) .. but after less than a year of baking in the sun i now need a windbreaker to last the night in the video editing room. heck, even 24*C is cold to me now. something tells me im gonna freeze in taiwan the same way i did on biang (thats the 'mountain' we climbed in brunei. wet, cold, windy and miserable. gaaah) dont think i should expound on this any more.

should be leaving home now to pack my stuff for ROC, looking forward to the disembarkation leave on wed. cant help but feel that time flies - i can hardly believe im actually going to ROC, its the culumination of the course, the sumex (summary exercise) already, and its also the toughest period when we'll literally be under scrutiny and assessment (damn i hate that word) 24/7 x 18 days at least. and i cant believe its a month to xmas. i see decorations and i hear the jingles but it just doesnt *feel* like xmas. theres no heal-the-world or hug-a-tree type of caring or generosity that i can elicit.. i dont feel particularly grim or anything about roc, but somehow all the emotions have been drained from me. maybe im just tired. or maybe im jaded. i dont know anymore - i can only hope to wake up on wed and find that all this has passed. i really really hope so.

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11.23.2002

 

realised its been way too long since i last posted anything on a sat - esp a sat when im supposed to be at home (instead of burning it away on overtime work)... tho having said that theres not much diff really, since im - you gussed it - still working on this week's worth of video. one complication now: the CCD in the camera seems to be on the verge of going already and i leave for taiwan on thu am. work continues mon and tue, we get wed off and actually by wed night we have to be in the airport. that leaves me with all of 1 working day (wed) to either fix the camera or get a replacement. not good...

more stuff to come later, if im still capable of blogging (responsibly!) then. zoned out on little sleep for e past few days outfield. bleah.

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11.17.2002

 

i dont normally repost (ha ha, riposte, geddit? sorry. in-joke) lyrics ive posted before in my blog, especially if it can be found on the same page, but here's an exception, cos i really cant find any better song than this that sums up the general feeling, and its a song im listening to over and over again to savour the moment. to all my frens who are down in the dumps.. im really not going to name everyone.

Coldplay - The Scientist

---

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you, tell you I need ya,
And tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start,
Running in circles, coming in tails,
Heads on a science apart,
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start


I was just guessing at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science, science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart,
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me,
Oh and I rush to the start,
Running in circles, chasing tails,
Coming back as we are


Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start

---

to be honest, its either this or the cardigans' "lovefool", but then again the former's so much more apt.

timestamp: anonymous 12:50 0 comments

 

recommended reading for those wishing to know what's been happening in the course: Novacraft, my buddy (not literally, in the sense its used at work) mingyang's blog. thinking i may be off the blog for more than 3 weeks cos once i come back from ROC there'll be a TON of video to process.. so much for off-days after ROC. its gonna be a blue xmas, cooped up in a nondescript video editing room somewhere in the recesses of nus. and that's another big irony for all of you..

timestamp: anonymous 12:41 0 comments

 

shucks i missed this!



anyway that link seems to have got me back into the world of neopets. (people who know my nick on neopets can go ahead n neomail me or visit my shop, etc) the last time i touched it was last dec - before i stepped into this big mess i now term work, or training - when i was fanatically playing neoquest (i still havent finished, tho to be fair i havent touched it for almost a year) all the way thru the A levels, cos thats when my cable connection finally came up. (i do suspect neoquest, together with icq, must have bumped my magix ADSL bill up into the 100s range for a month or two before i got cable... *grin*) i dont want to think how different things are, almost a year on (not yet a full year, cos by then ill be in ROC..) when everybody's literally all over the place and i cant even keep track of whats happening to my frens, much less myself. and yet its strangely comforting to know that some things dont change, even when these are the things u hate the most - the NKF came by to do a free health screening cum GIRO donation drive and i never knew i was that short or that fat before... my BMI a year on is almost 2 kg/m^2 more!! that cant be... *sob*

original point of the post: nothing seems to satisfy me these days, theres not even a decent game out there to play, i guess maybe thats why i went back to neopets after all. =|

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just cant help but feel like my blog's *dying*. blogs, as an online phenomenon, are supposed to be updated as often as possible, i mean ideally like a few 1000 times a day, posting whatever interesting thots uve had- but 'as often as possible' really translates into once in a few weeks for me (it certainly feels that way) and as for interesting thots - havent particularly had any of note that i can remember, or even have the time to expound on at length. im not going to just quit this blog, but if anybody's wondering what's happening, actually ive posted it somewhere on the blog before - the pace of things is really picking up, most of the time we're outfield and theyve clamped down hard on hp use so i cant even check my mail from my phone (ah, the wonders of technology) much less have time to blog properly. heading for ROC next week, 28nov, for 3 weeks til 19dec. just in time for xmas... not before we've had another major exam. heck. din even study for friday's exam.. believe me when i say exam i do mean exam, counting for a disproportionate weightage of the knowledge component (out of the KAQ - Knowledge Abilities Qualities, + Physical, model of assessment) as compared to our usual tests. speaking of which we have another two on tues (havent studied either, am totally clueless about the topics) plus a physical test on mon and tue which i am quite incapable of passing. it's a veto factor for the course, i believe, so i think im quite screwed... enough griping.

anyway suffice to say i havent had a particularly rosy week and its kinda interesting that many of my frens (who are not in the course, obviously!!) are going thru similar rough patches at around the same time.. maybe its astrology or something, ive always found it terribly coincidental how my groups of frens would feel down one after another around the same time. shared experiences are out, since everybody's literally living in a world of their own, and i havent been keeping in contact with anybody at all the past couple of weeks. so that's really something to mull over.. when im outfield this week i guess.

not making much sense cos im still very drained. crappy video project, burning up all my weekends cooped up in the editing room in my dad's place. and the best part is i refuse to take any more footage - i havent actively video-ed anything at all for the past month, i believe, and im STILL doing so much, mainly cos its repeated work - every time i finish it some catastrophe strikes and i find myself starting from scratch again. ive had the hard disk formatted, a different version of premiere installed, and enough compatibility problems to drive a marraige counselor mad. *sigh* i think im getting downright sick of video editing...

um. wanted to say loads more things more meaningful and thought-provoking than just plain complaining about my life day in day out, but it seems like that's all im capable of doing nowofdays. so much for this being a mentally challenging vocation - in the end its still repetitive, mindlessly so, just that the day-to-day running is loads more complicated (and hence mentally taxing).

suspect itll be another blue xmas. somehow i just have this bad feeling itll turn out like the time i was stranded in perth for xmas- perth, or western australia, for that matter, feels so totally devoid of life and places to see, we spent virtually all our time out of perth but still couldnt find anywhere worth going- went thru a lot of trouble to get a net connection going, and this was back in the time where 33.6kbps modems were blazing fast and connecting to the net from overseas cost a bomb, as it still does, cos i missed all my frens.. and in the end i camped online the whole day with nobody to talk to. and that felt utterly horrible. maybe i recall this cos sometimes i feel i try very hard to reach out to my frens but nobody's ever there for me. then again maybe im just becoming a hermit. after all, i did remain quiet for 2 weeks, din i? nothing seems to satisfy nowofdays. havent been listening to all my shows, okay some were cancelled, but the rest are mostly on saturdays when im slogging away on the video and where theres no radio reception, much less phone reception, and its a right royal pain to set up the necessary programs to listen to streaming audio from the net (these arent my computers, remember?).. sigh. i know ive always been too dependent, too high-maintenance (even when i always pronounce myself a low-mainenance person) and now i probably am more independent - i dont go about dumping my problems to anybody in particular any more - but at the same time i dont know whats happening to me, or who i am any more. i feel that i have sinned, and i have, in many ways. i feel that i have suffered, but somehow i cant quite communicate (even when i pride myself on being able to communicate whatever feeling that happens to be on my mind) what ive gone thru to the people around me, partly out of fear that ill sound braggy n overbearing to those who havent gone thru these things, partly cos i think people wont be interested in hearing about them, and partly cos im so sick n tired of going thru all this crap that i cant possibly relate them again. and also cos ive learned that every time i say something it doesnt come out quite right..

somebody help me.

timestamp: anonymous 12:19 0 comments

11.05.2002

 

Bic Runga - Sway

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Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

[CHORUS:]
Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

[CHORUS TWICE]

It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true

[CHORUS TWICE]

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

---

nothing much to say.. too tired to say much.. but i just felt like putting the song up, so there. it's my blog!! =)

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11.03.2002

 

crawled home. made a bad call on e editing, rendered e files (which took quite a while) instead of manually copying them over (copy n paste) 1 at a time. oh heck ive actually posted that already! going going gone.. haha. anyway to moderate the mood a bit here's something inspirational for these trying times. thanks von. =)

when you're feeling down, you need to hit rock bottom
for only when you reach the end, then you have to face the reality
do you want to languish there or do you want to start bouncing back
you gotta make a choice and live with it
-- the horse whisperer
(loosely paraphrased)

it sounds pretty common-sensical. oh well.

OST: Bjorn Torske - "Trobbel" (geddit?)

timestamp: anonymous 20:59 0 comments

 

i absolutely HATE people (now thats something you dont see often!) who think they know a lot about editing who are very generous with their suggestions (oh, why don't you do blah blah blah...; you know you could do yadda yadda yadda..; its better if you do etc etc etc). and people who dont just bliming suggest but demand things are a couple of orders lower on my hierachy of life-forms. back seat drivers. mutter

timestamp: anonymous 16:51 0 comments

 

i know i bitch about my life a lot and its increasing in frequency but i cant quite help it, its e only thing keeping me from actively hurting myself (as tho the things that happen arent enuf already). guess what? its 0041 now. ive spent more than 12 hrs in the editing studio already, after being let off on sat night (instead of sun morning) in view of my duty shift on mon, which means that i have to be in by 0600+. thats less than 5h from now - i havent even finished the crappy tape. narration is expected, ha ha, and premiere refuses to let me import the work so its either manually copy n paste 1 file at a time, or export the bloody thing into an avi, which takes quite a fair bit of time too. on top of that theres some pretty damned brainless copying of diagrams to do (5 of a block diagram, another 5 of a more complicated one) and 3 pages of a worthless journal nobody even bothers to read (its one of those must-submit things), not to mention that i wont get much sleep tomorrow (since im on duty) nor for the whole bloody week. and its another 1-day weekend next week, and the week after that, and the week after that, too. you get the idea. bloody hell.

OST- prodigy "fat of the land" album

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10.30.2002

 

had a manic day - e past 24h were just totally crazy. had turnout at 0330, did a whole lot of stupid things, slept, or at least went bleary-eyed thru a 3/4 day of lessons, then rushed to videotape a soccer match between e previous and our current batch of trainees, then rushed back to videotape a sort-of initiation event. end result? 2x 1h miniDV tapes finished in 24, no, less than that.. and 1.5 cans of beer. small achievement, i guess, its e first time im guzzling beer and im not remotely drunk yet.. (compared to a few frens i could name haha) but i have to say the taste absolutely sucks. its dry, its bitter, its... i cant understand why ppl wd want to down this kind of thing. oh, and some funny cocktails which were really strong. bleah =|

feeling rather ambivalent now. all of a sudden i have 2h of video to edit in less than a day (sun - dont ask, long story). i guess i can live with that, but sometimes life just throws a spanner in the works out of the blue.. something devastating u just dont quite expect. im/ i was feeling rather despondent earlier today but having gone thru this days events in one piece theres a creeping sense of optimism, however slight, that i can still scrape by. jun - were in this together, take it easy n best of luck.

here's something that fits the mood - oasis' "little by little"

oasis - little by little

---

We the people fight for our existence
We don't claim to be perfect but we're free
We dream our dreams alone with no resistance
Faded like the stars we wish to be

Y'know I didn't mean... what I just said
But my God woke up on the wrong side of His bed
And it just don't matter now

Little by little we gave you everything you ever dreamed of
As little by little the wheels of your life have slowly fallen off
Little by little you have to live it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why are you really here?

True perfection has to be imperfect
I know that that sounds foolish but it's true
The day has come and now you'll have to accept
The life inside your head we gave to you

---

good luck to all n godspeed. peace out.

timestamp: anonymous 15:36 0 comments

10.27.2002

 

feeling particularly blu today, no apparent reason, it's just a feeling.

x'ho sounds so sad opening his very last say it with music on p10. its always struck me as being odd, how someone who was the antithesis of pop could host a dedication programme chockful (in joke... x'ho's the chocomon on say it with music) of boybands, girlbands, disposable pop. i remember the time when life! ran something on him a few yrs back, think his cd x'ho with an x - a, nay, the first, local spoken word album - came out at that time, and sbdy accused him of selling out (by way of hosting say it with music) to make ends meet. i beg to differ - alternative and non-mainstream (thanks to the music industry they do mean different things) music aren't always more sophisticated than pop, only that they pander to fewer people by virtue of their definition (and maybe theyre more artistic...). so there. thats something i found myself pondering this am/ last night working out the soundtrack to the video clips.. how i had to search thru for pop that was appropriate for the content, stuff that everybody could relate to yet fit like a glove to whatever was happening on screen. okay, not quite pro-quality timing sync, but, um, close enuf.. =]

how touching, many people have written in to say bye to x'ho.. once again ive joined the silent majority. here's hoping he doesnt disappear from radio altogether. do drop by xhosux.com, his site. am thinking of buying his latest book - tho i dunno wat my mum wd say - featured in the book pages of 8days, Attack of the SM Space Encroachers. i guess he's a local icon, and it could only happen here.

anyway here's a very blu song that's on the 'fan OST now.

Coldplay - The Scientist

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Martin/Berryman/Buckland/Champion. 2001©coldplay

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you, tell you I need ya,
And tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start,
Running in circles, coming in tails,
Heads on a science apart,
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science, science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart,
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me,
Oh and I rush to the start,
Running in circles, chasing tails,
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start

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no wonder u2's "electrical storm" sounds so good... william orbit ("Barber's Adagio for Strings") produced it..

im sorry to everybody who keeps coming back only to find my blog full of music, music and nothing but music. i do want to blog about other stuff, but every weekend when i get the time to blog im always so drained there's only one thing left on my mind and that's music. besides i dont exactly keep up with what's happening outside any more- not til i 'graduate' from training next jan. blogs, esp communities of frens blogs, shd be interactive - interactive in a way only the web can offer, dynamic content, reacting to others' posts (on their own blogs) or comments (on yours), basically thinking aloud. really there's been a lot - i do mean thinking stuff - on pris' and grace's blogs ive been wanting to post about, but never had the time/opportunity to. and time's running out on me again, theres just tons of unfinished work and ive gotta head back to work again. if ure wondering, yes, im reading, and im responding - only ull probably never hear the response. that sounds so inane, doesnt it? i feel like im leaving all my frens behind. in some cases, my frens really are away. but i digress. is it true that ive changed (yet again)? i dont know. that's so me.. i never know. how the @#@$ can i ever become a proper leader - since that's what my job description states - when i continually fail to get anything in order, not even myself (dont even get me started on managing people and equipment)? but this isnt a dumping session, to borrow a phrase, if ive changed, its cos now im not as dependent as i was in the past. in some ways ive become numb, i guess. theres really nothing more to my life now than work and music. work, cos the assignments they give are just endless and leave us - or is it just me in particular? - with literally no room to catch my breath. music, because that's the one fundamental thing my life seems to revolve around now. work leaves me with next to no time for friends, and its with a heavy sigh and a large twang of regret that i say that. whatever time i get off its never at the hours that ordinary people off with real lives are out at, much less *up*. sometimes i feel isolated from the world, and that's not very far from the truth. what more can i say? life will only get worse.. culuminating around xmas when were in ROC for 3 wks of back-to-back assessment in realistic situations. til then, thank goodness for streaming audio and bbc radio one's on-demand shows. cheers if ure still standing wif me at the end of it all, a teary goodbye if ure not.

*sob* just heard it on radio - how much longer will i hear the H*I*P*P*A*R*A*D*E stinger for x'ho's hip parade?

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10.26.2002

 

oh whoops dun b irritatingly absent minded like me n forget all ur fav shows (radio or not) ok?
missed ALL the good sat shows already.
what's on today (271002)

• calvin's tour de trance from 1200-1400 (local time)
  
• gilles peterson's worldwide from 2000-2200 on 913
  (btw worldwide bagged best syndicated radio show at the Muzik awards. post on that coming soon. and zouk lost out to space in ibiza i think... expected, i guess. =( )
  
• the urban lounge with ks lee from 2200-0000 on 913
  
• last ep of x'ho (chris ho)'s hip parade from 2300-0000 on 987
  
• and the last ep of glenn ong's A-Traxx from 0000-0100 on 987, too.
  

what's the world coming to?

"the day the music died" - from the song American Pie

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manic. just finished burning 2 cds x 12min of finished video. started editing at my dad's place once work ended, straight thru til 0130+ before i got back. late dinner (tortilla chips w microwaved salsa... im eating & working like im in uni, dammit), later shower, then burned e 2 backups. im so thankful i decided to go wif bio/med rather than computers (not that i have much talent in either, but its sorely lacking in the latter). i cant imagine doing this for a living and still relishing every moment of it. theres no love lost between me n premiere right now. =\

flat out. wdve KOed on e editing com if not for 1x red bull, which incidentally made up most of my sustenance for today again. suffice to say im pretty zonked - still functioning, mind, but no presence of mind/awareness.. not making much sense am i? life's messed up, in a minor-grouse-for-the-sake-of-grousing way. oasis isnt coming to town, and on fri, after my 4h networking prac & theory i find that x'ho's brilliant hip parade is being canned after years of dedication and loyalty on his part. hell, even class95 & heineken canned his smooth grooves slot from mon-thu a few yrs back. and e irony is clas95 says they want to keep him on air.. oh well. bless his poor soul. do tune in tmr, 987, 2300-0000 as he says goodbye; i think the show's been on for maybe a decade already? ill be recording it.

jun, if u do read this (ha ha)

welcome back

. great job... hang in there. von, too - wdve posted sthg but a bit zonked now, see if i can whip up sthg later. ironically i watched sthg eerily similar on AXN on fri (dont ask how i managed to squeeze the time... its a long story). kay more work to clear. hip hop hooray!

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10.20.2002

 

im at it again.

*gush* dj shadow - "six days" (mos def rmx) is too good for words. its just got this infectious lyrical rhythm to it.. and incidentally i was listening to bits from the album that shot him to fame, Endtroducing... earlier today, cant remember exactly where but it mustve been on one of those internet streaming radio stations. and yes i heard this song for the 2nd time on local radio, 30 mins apart - first on 913 and second on 987's a traxx. sometimes i think im delirious. for a while yesterday i was quite convinced i heard U2's "electrical storm" while in transit in hong kong's chek lap kok (yes, i hardly go anywhere without my radio... thats why its pretty beaten-up and is probably the reason why my ears bled) a few years back. but it cant be cos the song's a new single... whats wrong wif me?!

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aha i forgot to include a plug for calvin's show, tour de trance, on WBAR barnard college radio on (local time) sun 1200-1400. for once my com din cough up at that time period .. am proud to report that the playlist is on par with the syndicated shows and the local specialty shows. um its still a little rough around the edges, but its a work in progress... do catch it anyway!

so much for win xp being super stable and all. either that or the way i work kills my computer in addition to me.

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gone cold turkey for about 20 hours without blogging already. now isnt that an achievement?

din break my promise, either, i finished *something*, unfortunately its not very much. i have before me a monumental mess from finishing one piece of stuff, a discussion that had to be typed out as an assignment with proper visual aids, no less.. o_O thats due tmr. but i still have 3500 words to go on my 4000 word essay - estimating, of course, ive crapped about 1 pg worth of, well, crap, and i have yet to touch my video editing work that's due tmr. if i dun wanna break my back lugging another 5kgs worth of silicon and plastic down - i wun even have the time to use my com when im there, and its extra hassle when i come back cos i gotta plug in all the peripherals again - i need to burn the output on a cd, prefarbly vcd, since there's a snowball's chance in hell that the avi file will fit onto 650mbs worth of cd-r. (if the source material's already 4gb... o_O)

ho ho i cant believe this - morcheeba feat slick rick (yes, the guy who did "pie" with the rock... ick i hate wrestling. but the rock can carry a tune... and that's also the nickname of an old fren who's since gone overseas to study - but i digress) "women lose weight".. on local radio, 913 on ks lee's urban lounge. wow... its a very tongue-in-cheek song about this guy (voiced by slick, of course), who kills his portly wife and elopes wif his secretary.. and if you can extrapolate from the very overplayed "pie" its really really wry & dryly humourous.. gotta love morcheeba.

morcheeba feat slick rick - "women lose weight"

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What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

The name of this entertainement is
Women lose weight
Our first years of marriage everything was just great
But after two kids
And a weight gain factor
The fact is
Now she's completely unattractive
Look fat chicks
I don't mean to sound rude
I tell her nice hit the gym
And don't eat so much food
But no

Youre shallow
You need to run the course of unconditional love and so forth

But how if desire's is not there
That's just delayment
Divorce is, child support, alimony payments
My happiness i doubt discouraged
So hurry for an easier way out of this marriage
Meanwhile my secretary June well groomed
When you gonna leave your wife
I tell her soon mommy soon i assume
Or my destiny is blue
Interestingly
The only thing left for me to do is to kill her

What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

I'm gonna have to kill her

Of course there's laws which enforces divorces

Send that ass right to the morgue miss

My plans against or shenanigans
Kinda ran thin
Knowin' nothing about poisoning
And i can't swim
Bad intentions pumping
Might as well become numb
Cut her lungs or the obvious robbery gone wrong
But the catch is do i have the nerve to dispatch this
Who can i get to help me murder this fat chick
I guess i'll have to play a dude robbin on wednesday
The day she usually goes food shopping
Anyway long story short hit the side of her Chrysler
And sent her clean over the divider
"You bastard" she said as the wreck went tumblin down the hill
I thought "she has to be dead"
Later on get a call
(from a) Lieutenant O'Rourke
(had me) leapin like a frog
We need you at the morgue
So i selfishly pursue
"boohoo" there was nothing else for me to do i had to kill her

What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

C'mon ya'll know i had to kill her

Of course there's laws which enforces divorces

Send that ass right to the morgue miss
Kill her

What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

C'mon ya'll know i had to kill her

Of course there's laws which enforces divorces


Send that ass right to the morgue miss

So you mean to tell me officer you don't have no clue who did this hit and run
No sir we don't have no clues right now
This is terrible what am i gonna tell the kids?
Pull yourself together sir
I'm so broken up inside i just can't believe this
I understand, I understand
Catch the person who did this
We're gonna try sir
Please

Screamin "who done took my heart" acting shakin up a lot
At the funeral though everyone was lookin at me odd like i did it
Like i was the reason my mates slain murmuring
"I heard he was displeased with her weight gain"
While my secretary sort of a sexy blonde can't cook
All she does is order from restaurants
All of the sex you want
I doubt could address, clothes not washed proper and house look a mess and
Talkin to detectives that was waitin outside
How i took a long lunch break day the wife died
I darn near turned pale
And because of betrayal they indicted me, and gave me an impossible bail
Good fortune to anyone admiring the rawtent
Moral of the story is
Desire is important
So watch your weight
It'll keep you mate smitten it's a given
Though looking back i realised i didn't have to kill her

What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

I didn't have to kill her

Of course there's laws which enforces divorces

Send that ass right to the morgue miss
I killed her

What a surpriser
Open your eyes, A
Woman advisor

I didn't have to kill her

Of course there's laws which enforces divorces

Send that ass right to the morgue miss

Well there you have it
Keep thin trim
Keep your mariage healthy
Do you know what i mean?
Small message from Morcheeba and Slick Rick the ruler

Peace

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who am i kidding, i feel ridiculously fat at this point in time, after 1 1/2 wks of the sedentary life i so sorely miss, all e calories are going in and hardly coming out. ick..

nothing intellectual from me, ure gonna get.. cant function that way. this is about all the satire (is it even the right term?) i can muster.. wrists a-hurtin' from 48hrs of work, + - , on the com, being tilted at an impossible angle. have had to plug in an external keyboard to my laptop - can you imagine how ridiculous that sounds? - and rest it on a cushion on my lap to type. ~ow.

this'll be the end of the superfrequent updates on fanZINE as i get back to work tmr. incidentally the redesign hasnt been done! (im not too surprised by that.. tho really its an achievement resisting the urge to blog today). was intending to start a series of rapidly-created 'disposable' designs that change frequently (as opposed to a carefully-created one that's supposed to last, if only to justify the amt of time spent on it).. its a copyrighted idea so i came up with it first, alright? i think thats e reason why i dont speak up so much.. so that i wun say anything stupid so ppl wun noe how dumb i am. should probably apply that here, too.

i keep saying this but i always forget.. apologies to everybody who's linked me to their blogs, yes yes the links are supposed to come up with the redesign.. so since i wun be posting at the kind of frequency ive been doing over e past few days, ill make up for it by redirecting you all to each other for your daily blogging fix.. im so nice. *bhb* ^_^

• dropshot
  
• musings & rantings
  
• novacraft
  
• vasovagalsyncope ... vasovagalwha-? dont ask me.. *dimbulb*
  

kay enjoy yourself! tho i highly doubt that thisll be the last post before i leave tmr.

come to think of it thats not a lot of links/blogs. ill do something about it soon!

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10.19.2002

 

no more posts till something gets done. that's a promise.
(and as you know im never very good with promises.... bah.)

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all this only goes to show that work inevitably expands to fill up all the time u have for it (all e way until the deadline).. im stuck on a terrible guilt trip now cos i just idled one whole freaking day away writing 3 pages worth of a crappy assignment and haven't done any of the things that really matter, the same way i idled all of last weekend away. did i mention i have a theory n prac test in sp next week and weve more or less covered 1 *full* (by that i mean stuffed to the gills and then some) thick ring file (you know, the type with the lever arch or whatever they call it) in 1 1/2 weeks? o_O inside there are acronyms everywhere - its almost worse than the military - and to top it off there are formulae too. i havent started going thru the pile. does that make me a quasi-med student now? come to think of it, i can feel myself going quasi-mAd already.

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heard dubstar's "stars" for e 2nd time today - technically still today since im not going to sleep anytime soon - this time on power98. is this just sheer coincidence or is there some hidden meaning in it from the gods? =\

think i blogged way too much yesterday, its seriously a bit too much spread out over too many tiny posts until its downright icky to read - not to mention e text is intentionally small. will i ever work on the redesign? quite doubt it, going by the rate im going and the way my work ethic manifests itself. heck this is prob e last nite ill ever be spending for e next couple of months, if not *years*, working in a different time zone, on the inverted day/night cycle that's normal for students, slogging/slacking til the wee hrs then crashing til the pm.. esp the sleeping in. the next few months will be full of sleeping late and none of sleeping in.. just as soon as i hit equilibrium again my schedule changes abruptly. that's life for you.

nice - "a deeper shade of soul", or at least thats wat i think it is, artiste unknown.. its actually kinda swingy and soulful at the same time. anyhow late-night weekend programming (i mean radio!!) is becoming less and less bubblegum pop and more and more specialized: power98 does the whole soul & hiphop thing then has a lounge slot (courtesy of mario, i believe, who seems to have made a very quiet defection from rival station 913), 987 has the coke soundlab, the selector and club beats, and 913 has a whole slew of shows, syndicated (pete tong's essential selection) to homebrewed (when jason spins, rico's reload etc). im especially pleased wif e homegrown stuff, some of it is really top-notch stuff. um, anyway, point being that e local radio scene is very very slowly maturing, and that's good.

not getting enough work done.
me = toast

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Debating Human Happiness by Steven Pinker, Martin Seligman & Robert Wright

from the zine Slate. all i can say is... wow.

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personal philosophy time!


A leader is best when people barely know he exists, not so good when people obey and acclaim him, worse when they despise him....But of a good leader who talks little when his work is done, his aim fulfilled, they will say, "We did it ourselves."

~ Lao Tzu

Leadership quotes and proverbs from heartquotes.net ... dont you just *love* translated chinese philosophers?

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#528 on the oh! so-you-mean-that-was-the-song-that-had-so-much-hype list:

• Amillionsons - "Misti Blu"

supposedly the "at the river" (the single that shot Groove Armada to superstardom) for 2002, all laid back n chilled out n all, but honestly i cant see why everybody's raving about it (ho ho did u catch that? ^_^ ) cos it sounds very very blah and mediocre to me. anyway caught it on 913 so good job on bringing the beats to our shores first (barring syndicated radio shows), lads!

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feeling particularly burnt out. been staring blankly at e screen for hours, not getting anything done on e essays (or the video editing either!!), randomly surfing blogs all over e place. theres a distinct feeling of *unsatisfaction*... like theres just something missing. maybe its my conscience nagging at me to get the work over n done wif - but then again i feel bad about writing 100% pure padding. having said that, though, i dont quite think anybody's going to really read e essays either...

heard one of my all-time faves, dubstar's "stars" on 913 a little while ago.. makes me somewhat happier, but still unsatisfied... good grief.

dubstar - stars

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is it asking too much to be given time
to know these songs and to sing them
is it asking too much of my vacant smile
and my laugh and lies that bring them

but as the stars are going out
and this stage is full of nothing
and the friends have all but gone
for my life, my god, im singing

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

is it asking too much of my favourite friends
to take these songs for real
is it asking too much of my partner's hands
to take these songs for real

but as the stars are going out
and this stage is full of nothing
and the friends have all but gone
for my life, my god, im singing

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside..

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

well take our hearts outside
leave our lives behind
and watch the stars go out

and watch the stars go out
and watch the stars go out

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read Untold Stories of D-Day @ National Geographic Magazine from e jun 02 ish today over breakfast, and, well, im just at a loss of words. i guess thats a lazy way out, i shd really try to capture the mix of emotions or risk becoming flat n unexpressive, if im not so already.

as with any military operation there will always be secrets and casualties.. im really not surprised at all that there was a full-scale live-ammo exercise prior to D-Day - but there were casualties, and by that i mean many died, not just due to accidents, but also because their LSTs (landing ship-tanks) were sunk by patrolling german u-boats (i think, correct me if im wrong). its especially tragic when u have people going, loosely paraphrased, how there was no way to save the people on the tank deck cos it was just covered in flames - the gasoline was aflame - and they had to close the air vents because then the smoke inhalation would end their misery before they burned to death. and the person who said that was the doctor on board said ship - who obviously is bound by the hippocratic oath, if not by his vocational duty, to save the lives of those under his care. its really really chilling, when medicine in war means triage - leaving those beyond help to die and making sure that only those who have a chance of survival are given priority in evacuation to proper medical attention. i mean really, its logical and works out in the best interests of the wounded, but its the scale of the whole thing that scares me. how can we lie with a straight face and tell people theyre going to be alright when both the victim and us know theyre going to die? im all for medicine to treat the person, not the disease/injury/affliction, but sometimes the line is drawn so far that sometimes treating whatever's wrong becomes more humanitarian, from a purely save-lives-only perspective. i like to think im hard enough to disregard that, i mean really in his shoes theres a 90% chance id do the same thing. but at the same time the remaining 10% says to hell with their chances of survival, save them at all costs. in that way its quite like Saving Private Ryan now isnt it? leading a whole platoon (i think) of men, 90% of whom never survive, to save one single person, not a war hero, mind, but an ordinary private soldier whose family lost 4? 5? sons on a single day's worth of fighting. incidentally theres a very thot-provoking review on the implications of Saving Private Ryan by a professor of philosophy at Santa Clara Uni.

i think im making a big fuss out of nothing - it all started as a muted opinion, a mere thought, at the beginning. thats me trying to be all deep n stuff again. i really shouldnt do that.

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what am i doing? i should be working. look at me - im a freaking essay-writing machine! i will crank out 4000 words + a biblio wif proper references in a coupla hours (yeah right) on, of all things, military ethics, values and esprit de corps. woO hoo! watch me pad! watch me cook up references that cant possibly exist on such a topic! faking to the max, man. i despise myself.

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alex gopher w demon prez WUZ - "use me"

lovely. never made the connection between what i heard on e radio and the review i read.. gee. and yes its one of those depressive songs.. (quote unquote "repetitive vocal refrain 'all you wanna do is use me' ") whee! currently unsure if that was a rmx or not. but it might just be the original cut, that wd speak quite well of it..

also underrated is babybird's "you're gorgeous" from the ugly beautiful album in '97. it sorta reminds me of the generic trendy-depressive sophisticated-pop that i seem to associate with the 90s. =\

babybird - "you're gorgeous"

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Y. O. U. R. E. G. O. R. G. E. O. U. S.
Remember that tank top you bought me.
You wrote 'You're Gorgeous' on it.
You took me to your rented motor car and filmed me on the bonnet.
You got me to hitch my knees up and pulled my legs apart.
You took an instamatic camera and and pulled my sleeves around my heart.

Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous our love will see us through.
Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous I know you'll get me through.

You said my clothes were sexy, you tore away my shirt.
You rubbed an ice-cube on my chest snapped me 'til it hurt.

Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous our love will see us through.
Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous I know you'll get me through.

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

You said I wasn't cheap. You paid me twenty pounds.
You promised to put me in a magazine on every table in every lounge.

Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous our love will see us through.
Because you're gorgeous I'd do anything for you.
Because you're gorgeous our love will see us through.
Because you're gorgeous I know you'll get me through. I know you'll get me through.

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10.18.2002

 

really deep thot for today, randomly discovered while sifting thru for stuff to write an essay (2 in fact) on leadership..

"am i not destroying my enemies when i make frens of them?" - abe lincoln

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NB theres a broadcast bit on the Zouk page with an AV gallery of big-name djs whove graced their console, among them Smokin' Jo (whom i can *recall* coming to town a few months back), Deep Dish (!!) and local stalwart Brandon P. worth a listen at the very least.

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just stumbled upon juice online, the wired abode of the local mag with a decidedly clubby slant that id been searching in vain for a few mths back.



my word... i guess we're really beginning to mature as a culture. what the heck is a G Book? mind, its a sex *education* party, and with sponsors like Action for Aids and the Parenthood Association around its not learning by practice. quite for it, really, this is just about the only way its possible to reach out to the terminally hip, the kind who dont give a ~ about what seems like just about everything..

i take issue with the title in full, tho (whats that, subtitle? um, the smaller-point text below the main short title? *help* ) "Sex In The Air" - e World's First Groundbreaking Sex Education Party with a Wireless Twist at Zouk.. [so THATs where the zouk homepage was...].. its definitely not groundbreaking. but if its wireless then maybe... apparently theres some segment where, um, sexperts answer questions posed, er, wirelessly. from any corner of the island, thats e impression i get... but as today's lessons on wireless technologies (wireless LANs n bluetooth) have shown thats not quite possible! *smirk* ^_^

sorry i missed out a close-double-quote (") so a huge chunk of text din display..

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finding it strange how rj and hc always wind up having open houses on the same day. how do they pull it off? why on earth would they want to do that? btw today was the rj/hc open house. and i think i can answer my own question already.. hm.

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notice: there will be no deep, philosophical ramblings on this site until the current state of bleariness & blahness subsides.
heck, were there *ever* any deep, philosophical ramblings on fanZINE, ever?

not good for the ego, this. =|

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Documents To Go 5 Premium Edition so totally rocks!

been looking for a *proper* office-type suite for my palm for eons now - and i sorely miss Pocket Office which came straight out of the box with my, now my dad's, hp jornada - cos NotePad and Memo on e palm can only do so much, you know what i mean? its like typing a term paper on MS notepad... doable, but adding formatting later, in another app, will probably kill you out of sheer frustration. not that e palm's all that bad, mind, it did come bundled with Documents To Go 3, which is - was - the cutting-edge MS-Office-for-e-palm suite yonks ago (um, for e record, my palm's nearing a yr old already... get ready the cake n candles..). which would be fine, except that it doesnt allow u to create new docs from the palm, tho u can edit stuff uve created on a desktop/notebook and synced into the pda. uhhh in simpler terms that means its not very smart not being able to create new documents.. anyway this new version's really got all the works, does everything from word docs to excel spreadsheets, powerpoint presentations, acrobat pdf files, images and even mail. woo hoo! may be tempted to give quickoffice 5.1 - the other office suite for e palm - the boot.. and i only just installed that this morning.. (then again its not the latest version of quickoffice, either).

enuf geeky rambling from me.. im just overflowing with good cheer now. to think that a trip down holland v, magazine hunting din improve my mood just a short while earlier.. all the angst has disappeared, *poof* into thin air.. for a while, at least, until the deadlines make their presence felt again.

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using strategic smses to deliver work - that is so 21st century.

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totally dead, burned, zombiefied. all i finished was e EDLs - Edit Decision Lists - for what wd go in, wat wdnt, etc, and to fulfil the requirements, a rough cut-n-pasted timeline in premiere. im totally disgusted with myself for having to stoop down to do what the system wants me to - its an inane system thats almost entirely based on the whims and fancies - and therefore arbitrary deadlines and random assignments of dubious use - of whoever's on top. i guess this im making this way too general but i *have* to do so. hot damn. if i was in media maybe id appreciate this.

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10.17.2002

 

i was seconds away from murdering 2 of my frens today for dropping my palm on mon. bumbling @#$% playing with it dunno how they managed to drop the thing. and as a result i wasnt able to sync for DAYS on end and getting pretty desperate here cos theres a ton of work to do - mostly typed - and since we spend so much time in the freaking poly it only makes good sense to start typing out e crappy assignments on my palm in class, half e class is asleep anyway and the other half couldnt even care. im gonna get stoned (think The Lottery) for this, if anybody reads whatever ive just blogged. workload's just TRIPLED in 30mins via strategic smses sent from our in-charge who obviously wasnt on site. i still have 1 hr of captured video to piece together into a coherent whole and produce by tmr.
URGGGHHH anyhow whatevers written never comes out the same way you feel... i feel totally murderous now.

OST: Goldenboy with Miss Kittin - "Rippin' Kittin" (Ellen Allien remix)

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10.16.2002

 

somethings wrong with the timestamp... im quite sure i posted the jay chou flash link at 2300+ on 16oct. oh well, no issue...

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instead of forwarding links ive decided to adopt an opt-in scheme: click if interested.. helps keep unnecessary network traffic down. (the stuff im learning in sp...) anyway this is a nice multimedia story.. not exactly predictable in the expected sense anyway. Star thanks to adeline for the link!

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all my deadlines have been pushed forward to fri - not the final deadlines, mind, but the presentation of the first draft, so that corrections can be done over the weekend. o_O the monday deadline still stands, so now its twice the amt of work (um, warped logic.. but whos counting?) in half the time. which kinda quadruples the work, i think! looks like its increasingly unlikely ill b able to head down to the durian to catch anything this weekend. assuming there's something to catch, that is.. quite interested in going for the NY Philharmonic when theyre down, just for the fun of it. anybody interested?

realised with a big D'OH that ive been neglecting all my favourite radio shows. sat i cant remember what i was doing, i plain forgot about Pete Tong's Essential Selection, sun i had actually *finished* watching metropolis by the time Gilles Peterson's Global Underground was on, i *knew* there was something i wanted to catch but i din noe wat it was and wound up half-listening to X'Ho's Hip Parade and Gosford Park on DVD. (its a terribly convoluted story, too..) and today, i clean forgot about the coke sponsored SoundLab on 987 at 2300-2315 mon-thu. caught the last 5 min, today's featured dj is from frontal labs and its quite a promising local site. speaking of SoundLab, i was *very* surprised a few weeks ago when i heard about underground parties - on national radio, no less - that have been going on for quite a few yrs now, to widespread acclaim.. flower parties, thats what i heard, last sat of e mth, undisclosed location, contact flowerparty@email.com, something like that. proof that were actually getting somewhere on e global music map... or the underground, to be more precise. im pleased, to say the least.

on the other hand, it appears that paul oakenfold AND gilles peterson have both been in town in the past week (if not the past coupla weeks), and i ***DIDNT KNOW***... okay not the paul oakenfold part. as usual i forgot. but gilles peterson, HERE? ~sigh. oasis' coming to town soon, wanted to scan in the flyer but then again theres not much point cos its a really common sight now.. deciding whether to go or not, prices are pretty steep and im quite sure tix are much cheaper in the uk (going by the listings in - what else? - muzik), plus theres a good chance ill be swamped with work as usual. but then again this could be a once-in-a-lifetime chance! not that im an ubergroupie of theirs, but, well, talent is talent.. theres no arguing with that.

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an original flash mtv for jay chou's "jian3 dan1 ai4"... very nice, very cute, very slick. would that i could create something like this! thanks to peiling for this link..

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10.15.2002

 

you are the second youngest girl. you die with carbon monoxide posioning.

you are a rebel, you have sex on the roof, smoke, stay out later than told..

you're mom made you burn your rock records... you were the beautiful one.

you're a stone fox and by far most people's favorite lisbon girl.

what lisbon girl are you?

(brought you by april)


always loved The Virgin Suicides, thot it was about time i revisited it... the book, that is. never did get to watch the film - and the OST was by the acclaimed french duo, Air, too.. damn. no literary pretensions - i din quite get it, if its saying anything, its over my head (as usual). its just beautiful in a tragic way i guess. incidentally Jeffrey Eugenides has a new book out, Middlesex, dealing with hermaphroditism and gender change, from the same conversational-recounting POV.

quite right on most accounts.. anyway whats a stone fox?

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10.14.2002

 

coincidences coincidences coincidences.. e world just keeps getting smaller every day. im amazed - and thats an understatement - tho on hindsight i really shouldnt, given how small 1) my social circle seems to be and 2) e country actually is. hrmmm. o_O

apologies for e spate of short posts - simply no time/not in a state to blog conducively. "i must hurry," said e little white rabbit in e hat.
activity time: can you spot e line quoted from a very early post on this blog?

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groan just got back. feeling totally under e weather, sneezing/dripping my head off e entire day, and i do mean literally nonstop. ick. throbbing away on 40mins of sleep - tho today was particularly sedentary so i guess its still tolerable. off for an early night, had a few things to blog about but theyll have to wait (thats assuming theyll ever see e light of day). i hate pre-empting myself like that. plans for e site r shaping up, tho i havent quite thot about how to do up this blog, and there are still major loose ends in e entire concept. stay tuned.

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10.13.2002

 

hey somethings wrong wif e time - its 0540 now not 0640. im not crazy enuf to go thru e day without sleep.. i think. must be daylight savings time! (what savings??!)

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oh, and metropolis is a v nice show. every bit as gritty as blade runner but with anime characters instead of harrison ford. it starred harrison ford, right?

i always seem to catch up on movies way too late, and all in one shot. another manifestation of my horrible work ethic and time management. damn i hate myself.

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*groggy groan* just finished with my hrs worth of miniDV tape.. all in all took about 12+ h and ate up 4+ GB of my hard disk space. on either count tts not good considering i have a super long day ahead of me - classes end 5+ and tmr we're going back 2 e workplace 2 try n finish up e, er, unfinished stuff til about 2200+++. O_o

must catch some sleep now. replying everything later!!

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video-editing day. right now ive taken an hour ++ just to capture 10 mins worth of footage, ive got 1x full mini DV tape which is 1h long. and lets not talk about editing e actual thing. ick.

catching up wif shows while im at it. halfway thru osamu tenzuka's metropolis on DVD (no relation to miniDV tapes), i must say im impressed wif e sharpness of e format.. and e story is amazing. typical anime twists, turns and deep dark secrets, despite e overbearing cuteness (in this flick at least).. terribly engaging. in between ive been watching cartoon network - e Grim n Evil show and Time Cops are incredibly witty and intelligent - time cops is about historical characters, as far as i can gather. while im on e subject of cable tv, mtv seems to be a totally diff generation already, virtually all e hosts/vjs ive grown familiar with have all grown up and left e coop. utt's on local tv, costarring in Oh, Carol! and jamie aditya's now on e discovery channel! what next, donita rose becoming a CNA newscaster? o_O

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10.12.2002

 

im still miffed over missing e fencing finals from e Busan games. hrnnnnn. -o-

had a very nice dinner- home-made chicken enchiladas/tacos (i cant quite tell e diff, honestly - folded it such that it was kinda like a crepe...). bought a pack of flour tortillas from jelita yesterday, bought a roast chicken (also from jelita) today, mixed it with some hot salsa (haha hot... even i can take it!!) and voila instant mexican! nicer than it sounds..

e perenially-harrassed student's quickie chicken enchiladas/tacos
depending on how you fold them and whether u bake them again... i think

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• flour tortillas
  
• hot salsa dip
  
• roast chicken
  

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1. bake flour tortillas in toaster oven til golden brown/crispy, according to taste (i prefer it just on e verge of crispiness)
   
2. tear up e roast chicken into shreds/pieces and marinate in salsa
   
3. roll chicken/salsa into baked tortillas
   
4. enjoy!
   

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clip n save!

ps. im pretending to know how to cook, as usual. but it tastes good! honest!

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was watching e hockey finals of e Busan Asian Games 2002 earlier today - live telecast just before The Big Unknown and well it was quite interesting - reminds me of e time when iwent down to watch e sec sch hockey finals.. wait that sounds quite redundant. O_o

anyway this is real weird cos im actually watching sport on tv.. thats not something that happens very often; or at least used to. spectator sports have always been e ultimate irony - watching people sweat it out while indulging in e excesses of e couch potato.. on second thots i take tt back - with e notable exception of maybe f1 racing most fans do sorta play e sport. i think. help! uttering nonsense. i think e flu medicine's taking effect.

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stil grouchy.. this is so un-me. caught yet another ep of The Big Unknown on ch5; its pretty interesting i guess.. anyway i take issue wif wat e UCL student (and ex-RJ alum... but ive NEVER EVER seen/heard of such a person... EVER... *wail*) ijun - she claims that quite a few colleges have done away wif dissection altogether, she quotes her fren as saying they dun do dissection there (whereever there is..) anymore - so that's supposed to be a plus point of going to UCL? um... hello??! even in my hazy state of mind that doesnt make much sense to me... anyhow not being nitpicky, some of wat is said does make sense, eg having ur books written by e selfsame lecturers ( - UCL student ijun), and buying 2nd hand TBs (-SMU student Pat). and e Deakin student Paul... oh boy. hes exactly e type of guy id expect to run into at one of e hipper clubs around town (dont ask me which are in now, i havent e foggiest idea). he'd *definitely* fit in in oz! strangely enuf e clothes e students wear in ucl seem to be way more formal (not formal formal... um, okay maybe smart casual ++ ). hope thats not true in real life.. uni wdnt be uni without i-just-got-out-of-bed-5-mins-ago-so-heres-e-funkiest-i-can-muster ... which i guess im handling pretty well in poly now. =|

revelation: e selector (so i was wrong about e spelling, tho i cdve sworn 'selecta' is also permissible, it dates back from e era of ska - not e No Doubt kind of ska but something that sounds like it came out of e 20s/30s.. actually i noe next to nothing about it save for a cd i picked up at tower records thinking it was a more lyrical predecessor of hiphop! o_O ) isnt a spanking new p10 concept.. its a syndicated radio show from e british council. only difference between this and most other syndicated shows is only e music is syndicated: ie e playlist is fixed but e host is free to make up his/her own radio banter. works better than Rick Dees American Top 40 - i was almost fooled there! (fine, i WAS fooled... happy?). its a good weekly digest of watever's on e musicradar in e uk - more or less replacing my need to buy Q mag every coupla months for their review of e latest n greatest in british music on cd. i think im becoming more cheapskate by e day. o_O

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sorry if im particularly snappish today - feeling particularly frazzled, n e workload isnt helping. bleargh

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will sort out my digicam pix soon... and also thot of a new concept for e site.. stay tuned!

anyhow had another horrendous day in front of e routers in e lab. (theyre those flat rack-mounted things u see in pictures of servers..) trying in vain to get them up. erase config (erase start), reload, reconfigure, ping a few times to test, shake head in dismay, repeat. anyhow after 3h we got a different instruction.. changed e settings and lo and behold it worked! after e initial euphoria wore off we soon found ourselves on NetMeeting playing win, lose or draw...

its really quite fascinating how these routers n stuff are alternately simple & complex - surprisingly complex cos all we ever do is click on a link and pages will just load at the snap of a finger, nobody ever really knows whats happening inside, complex also cos its daunting; simple cos after a while everything makes sense- just like the funny subnet mask number on your com (Run -> ipconfig).. too much of a bother to go into details here- if anybodys interested beep me ill explain it. as best as i can, at any rate!

e esplanade's opening later tonight, sounds like a pretty big thing, and wat am i doing? hunched over e com with a ton of work on my mind. it feels just like school again.. somehow i just dont feel satisfied going thru this poly phase - i noe my frens are enjoying themselves to e max every day (and wind up snoozing away in class), heck theyre even intending to go down to watch e festivities - i just wind up sleeping all night, waking up tired, and getting nothing done in e meantime. zero computer games, too. something's just missing from this picture! maybe im just ill.

(2nd on my list of priorities, after e premiere video-editing, is a 4k wd essay on Military ethics, values & esprit de corps. thats enough to make me sick!)

malaise setting in again. guess thats all for now then.

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listening to music again- thanks to my sony street-style headphones.. you didnt really think i could survive without some form of portable music did u? ^_^

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10.11.2002

 

*groan* under e weather again. think e flu medicine's wearing off... gastric flu i believe. nasty!

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*grossout alert*

i just found a pimple - well okay a pustule to be precise - in both my ear canals... somewhere nearer e outside world (as opposed to being nearer to e big empty space inside my head). which happens to be right where my earphones go in.. wait that din come out quite right. hm. okay, its just where e earphones can reach.. hmm no. well u get e idea!

e point being that 1) my music means that much to me and 2) i havent used my earphones in ages, ever since i planted e speakers next to my desk. therefore my earphones are in serious need of cleaning/sterilizing, with an alcohol swab.. and my ears are now bleeding (ho ho i guess that puts me up in e ranks of e true music fanatics.. maybe even musicians! haha) and earphones are a strict no-no for at least e next coupla days. how am i EVER gonna survive in poly without earphones?? =|

realised that music is my security blanket. i take comfort knowing that my taste is different, unique, and that nobody probably has a clue wat im listening to. at e same time, because e music is familiar to me - as in when im listening when out - its something i can relate to even when e surroundings and people arent. okay i guess this isnt coming out as deep or philosophical as i intended it to be... ha! will revisit this topic in a later post. [note i din say when e post wd b coming..]

another achievement: finally got round to using e optical-out port of my SB extigy, recording stuff onto MD. digital/optical input's so much more efficient! wish i had started this earlier..and cos e extigy has so many outputs i can monitor watevers going onto e MD without having to plug in earphones or basically any form of output device onto e MD itself. hmmmmm!

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*on top of e world*

wow wat a day...

felt really surreal last night, i guess its e sum total of everything adding up to just feel, well, out of e ordinary. went to sleep - willingly! - at 2030, and after i turned off e lights, i put e radio to symphony 924 - not that i dun listen to 924, mind, but its that ive never left e radio on while sleeping, and on soft music at that... and outside, for once, it was really dark outside - maybe e neighbours were out or something, its not usually so dark so early - and tho i was groggy (malaise-tinged grogginess, if u must noe) there was just this overwhelming feeling that i was living in some other country, far far away from here. gee.

been in contact wif many many people ive lost touch wif, sometimes i wonder if my job isolates me from e world at large, and that maybe this is how my life should be when e tenure ends. not anytime soon, but something to look forward to, anyhow. e ironic thing is during e day, in poly, my phone's super quiet, and everybody else's is anything but! also, anybody whos interested in going to Zouk on 13nov - $16 for 2 drinks, and Centro360 on 16nov - $15 for 1 drink - let me noe. ntu hall bash... i think. speaking of zouk, i picked up a copy of I-S mag from e clementi Coffee Bean yesterday and was gobsmacked to find that they [zouk] ran a full page ad on e back cover just like e british/european superclubs!! ill whip up a picture or scan of it soon.. wow. proof that were actually getting somewhere... i guess its sort of a personal observation of what e world's beginning to acknowledge - our very own zouk is in e running for e best intl club in muzik mag's dance awards 2002... yay zouk!

finally dug up e courage to install realOne player on my system.. okay honest admission time - it was cos i wanted to listen to e streaming webcast n/or e previous wks radio shows on BBC radio 1. but anyhow now i can listen to wbar Barnard College Radio so calvin - yes ill b tuning in to your show this sun. unless im out. hahahaaaa

heard nine days' "story of a girl" while at e supermart today. its awfully nice, and it brings back lots of memories: its for a girl i knew and thats kinda e song i attached to/associated wif her cos she was always moody.. she never quite got e association anyhow. ^_^

nine days - absolutely (story of a girl)

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this is the story of a girl
who cried a river and drowned the whole world
and while she looked so sad in photographs
i absolutely love her
when she smiles

how many days in a year
she woke up with hope but she only found tears
and I can be so insincere
making her promises never for real
as long as she stands there waiting
wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
how many days disappear
when you look in the mirror so how do you choose
your clothes never wear as well the next day
and your hair never falls in quite the same way
but you never seem to run out of things to say

[chorus]
this is e story of a girl
who cried a river n drowned e whole world
n while she looks so sad in photographs
i absolutely love her
when she smiles

how many lovers stay
just to put up with this shit day after day
how did we wind up this way
watching our mouths for the words that we say
as long as we stand here waiting
wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose
how do we get there today
when were walking too far for the price of our shoes
your clothes never wear as well the next day
n your hair never falls in quite the same way
but you never seem to run out of things to say

[chorus]
this is e story of a girl
who cried a river n drowned e whole world
n while she looks so sad in photographs
i absolutely love her
when she smiles

this is the story of a girl
who cried a river n drowned e whole world
n while she looks so sad and lonely there
i absolutely love her
when she smiles

this is the story of a girl
her pretty face she hid from the world
n while she looks so sad and lonely there
i absolutely love her
when she smiles
when she smiles

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hey im getting sick n tired of answering qns. this song came out in 99.. i picked it cos it was fresh then. go figure!

this is e way my life should be. not perfect, but perfect enough for me - today.

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groan.. *collapsed* from 2030 til 0650 today. visible proof that i was right - i was/am feeling under e weather - and anyhow one of my gd frens is down already (to miss poly lessons like this really means ure sick cos nobody in their right minds wd skive off such a low-intensity activity... haha)
there. did absolutely NOTHING - and incidentally N.O.R.E's "nothing" is a v nice track. mixed by e Neptunes and apparently dropped off 1 major label before being picked up. and subsequently propelled into stardom, on another!

okay later!

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10.09.2002

 

back from e 1st day of e poly course on networking.. will be home for e next 10+days. words cant express how happy i am...

awfully zonked now, mind bleary, tons of work. wanted to blog something substantial but i guess that's pretty much shelved for now! surfing around aimlessly, poking my nose into the blogs of people from halfway across the world. which is kinda interesting, in e same way peoplewatching is interesting. i think.

finding a lot of things to think about.

• Taking aim at small arms - UNICEF website on child soldiers & children in warfare [includes some interesting/alarming facts]
  
• Fencing results from e Busan Asian Games '02 - whatever happened to our team? my coach mite have been there.. =| [hm this shdve been a full post by itself - i mite expand this later]
  
• NextMonet.com - art shopping on e web. visited their bricks-n-mortar HQ before some 3 yrs ago? amazed to find theyre still around. guess there still are survivors from e .dot com era after all.. wish them luck.
  

thinking about doing up e site. just might do it!

wow why do i keep typing such short sentences...

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10.05.2002

 

hm somethings wrong wif my archive link! e dates of e archive are supposed to be in the main blog window. anyhow ill try n get some work done on it soon.. if i ever get e time over e next 1.5 wks in poly, ill do e long awaited redesign. but first - does anybody noe what happens if u decide to switch from blogspot to your own server? or maybe i should just change e template on blogspot, which would, in theory, be much simpler.

btw - a big SHOUT OUT to jiaying if ure reading this - hows it goin? and to jun - if u DO read this leave a msg or beep me via net sms. lots of things to tell ya!

isnt this becoming a big post-it board? might wanna come up with something along those lines for a redesign..

later!

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just back, 1000s of things to do (and study, groan) so ill just make this snappy.

cant get this song outta my head.. its really really catchy. heard it on 987 in e past week or 2, and it took quite a while to track down the artiste/band and title, but here it is - busted's "what i go to school for", and its cheeky! *grinz*

busted - what i go to school for

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Her voice is echoed in my mind
i count the days til she is mine
cant tell my friends cos they will laugh
i love a member of the staff

i fight my way to the front of class
to get the best view of her ass
i drop a pencil on the floor
she bends down and shows me more...

[Chorus:]
thats what i go to school for
even though it is a real bore
you can call me crazy
i know that she craves me
thats what i go to school for
even though it is a real bore
girlfriends iv had plenty
none like miss mackenzie
thats what i go to school for
thats what i go to school for

so she may be thirty three
but that doesnt bother me
her boyfriends working out of town
i find a reason to go round

i climb a tree outside her home
to make sure she is all alone
i see her in her underwear
i cant help but stop and stare

everyone that u teach allday knows ur lookin at me in a different way,
i guess thats why my marks r gettin so high
i can see those telltale signs tellin me that i was on ur mind
i cud see that u want it more when u told me that im what u go to school for, im what u go to
school for

shes packed her bags its in the trunk
looks like shes picked herself a hunk
we drive past school to say goodbye
my friends they cant believe their eyes

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it kinda reminds me of caviar's "tangerine speedo" from the charlies' angels OST. [bonus points if anybody remembers when i was crazy about this song back in sch. *grin* NO i DIN wear a tangerine speedo.. ]

hasnt everybody gone thru something like this? actually i thot e song was in e vein of wheatus' "teenage dirtbag" which i still love & identify wif - turns out i was quite wrong - brings back a lot of memories, some warm, some tinged with sadness [is 'nostalgia' appropriate? but it makes me feel old.]. what i go to school for...

also appropriate cos i WILL be going back to sp for another course, this time on networking. what i go to school for...

*GRIN*

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9.30.2002

 

gripe, gripe, gripe. okay ill stop for now. another post if i ever finish everything by e time i hafta leave (ie not likely)!

ooh interesting factoid from daniel ong on 987 - apparently shifty shellshock, he of the oakenfold "starry eyed surprise" fame, was e vocalist behind crazy town's "butterfly", too! how interesting. ref: paul oakenfold feat shifty shellshock - "starry eyed surprise". nice!

i still think Bunkka isnt that bad an album, based on "starry eyed surprise". oh well..

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aside- pleasantly surprised to find that i listened to soul hooligan's "algebra" last night on radio.. only thing is i cant remember on which show i heard it, so i cant credit anybody with e honour! anyway i think i heard soul hooligan's "algebra" cos i distinctly recall the title "algebra" and the subject matter - everything but the artiste/group name. hrmmmmm. reminds me of a maths-based parody of e BSBs' "i want it that way"... something like that... way back when. (sec3 actually). those were the days.. anyhow "algebra" isnt quite like that. give it a try!

another thing - while sorting out e mess of mags in my room (believe me it is a lot) my mom came across this ish of mixmag wif 3 big, BAD words sprawled over e front cover (*wince*) - "sex/ drugs/ ibiza" sigh. it came in a poly-bag (shrinkwrapped) together wif a nice vinyl tote-bag (ie sized for holding vinyl, not made up of vinyl!!! what do u think i am??) which hid e cover. im not sure i wouldve bought it if i knew that was what was on e cover.. so there, thats why mixmag's more crass. now my mom really will be unsettled when im over there!! *major groan*

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what's wrong wif me?!!! ive just successfully wasted another day completely and utterly. bumming in front of e com, playing warcraft3 - 1 very long level (human campaign, level 5 where u start off really close to the @$#% undead base) on hard - so long that i doubt if i won thru skill rather than thru attrition, and one of the nonsensical diablo-like single player maps, that one i cheated.. anyhow its hard to see how even my game-playing has improved. so basically instead of sticking to my meticulous workplan i have extended 'rest' from 1200 all the way to 1730++, and since i have to get back soon and nothings been done OR studied, im kinda in a very big mess now! =(

why doesnt my time management improve? heck i shouldnt even be *typing* this. i should be working my bum off to try n get everything settled before i get back. major stress headache coming on. sigh. stay tuned for the continuing adventures of procrastinatorman! if he ever gets round to writing new posts... *groan*

i really feel worthless n useless now. i cant even get a day right! how the heck will i ever survive overseas? prob gonna be washed down - and washed out - in a sea of hedonistic (gee i like that word) partying/clubbing (hmm i dont really party in that sense. *sigh*)/computer gaming or whatever.. accomplishing absolutely nothing. great.

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