10.30.2002

 

had a manic day - e past 24h were just totally crazy. had turnout at 0330, did a whole lot of stupid things, slept, or at least went bleary-eyed thru a 3/4 day of lessons, then rushed to videotape a soccer match between e previous and our current batch of trainees, then rushed back to videotape a sort-of initiation event. end result? 2x 1h miniDV tapes finished in 24, no, less than that.. and 1.5 cans of beer. small achievement, i guess, its e first time im guzzling beer and im not remotely drunk yet.. (compared to a few frens i could name haha) but i have to say the taste absolutely sucks. its dry, its bitter, its... i cant understand why ppl wd want to down this kind of thing. oh, and some funny cocktails which were really strong. bleah =|

feeling rather ambivalent now. all of a sudden i have 2h of video to edit in less than a day (sun - dont ask, long story). i guess i can live with that, but sometimes life just throws a spanner in the works out of the blue.. something devastating u just dont quite expect. im/ i was feeling rather despondent earlier today but having gone thru this days events in one piece theres a creeping sense of optimism, however slight, that i can still scrape by. jun - were in this together, take it easy n best of luck.

here's something that fits the mood - oasis' "little by little"

oasis - little by little

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We the people fight for our existence
We don't claim to be perfect but we're free
We dream our dreams alone with no resistance
Faded like the stars we wish to be

Y'know I didn't mean... what I just said
But my God woke up on the wrong side of His bed
And it just don't matter now

Little by little we gave you everything you ever dreamed of
As little by little the wheels of your life have slowly fallen off
Little by little you have to live it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why are you really here?

True perfection has to be imperfect
I know that that sounds foolish but it's true
The day has come and now you'll have to accept
The life inside your head we gave to you

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good luck to all n godspeed. peace out.

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