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7.27.2002
will be busy trying to read this wk - well, no, from this wk onwards. wish me luck...
also worthy of note.. Stretch Princess' "Freak Show"... no comments as of yet (ive since forgotten how it sounds like!!)
fruitful book-buying outing to bras basah today, wound up not buying the stuff i was really looking for and finding some cool by-the-way stuff instead. guess thats the beauty of bricks-n-mortar shopping (something the online retailers are really trying hard to replicate... since it generates healthy sales, no? =| ) strangely enuf i wasnt able to pick up The Atlantic Monthly - wonder if anybody carries it over here.
song of the week: prodigy's "baby's got a temper". u just *hafta* check this out... so much attitude. and just wait till u hit the lyrics... and then the video's another story by itself... whoa!! "firestarter", their last notable single, was great and this just shows what theyre capable of... mmm. ^_^
no time this week, as usual, so this will be a very rushed and harried post. will be back for a long weekend next week (if my luck permits..) so maybe next week ill have something more substantial... mayhap i should start keeping a paper version of fanZINE so i can just type the stuff out on weekends? kinda goes against the whole point of blogging but thatll solve the content problem. opinion(s)?
7.20.2002
ive been reading portal: a dataspace retrieval which is a hypertext markup (heh heh fancy for HTML version... ooh evil me ^_^ ) version of an electronic novel by Rob Swigart, published in 86...! not much time to post properly about it now so ill save a review and a commentary about scifi/cyberpunk stuff and - you guessed it - Minority Report (which i *still* havent watched...) and a weird dream i had, um, 3 wks back that i never had the time to document. but after reading portal i think i should [document it] !
disclaimer: when i was halfway thru the book i realised that it was pretty run-of-the-mill stuff thats been rehashed a thousand other times in other scifi/cyberpunk books/stories/movies n so on. but its still rather engaging... who hasnt worried that ud be, as is the premise facing the narrator, the last person on earth someday? also recommended reading: z for zachariah by robert c.o'brien , read that in p4 for my 2nd ERP project ( ^_^ ) so its not mind-numbingly difficult to understand or whatever... its not a childrens' childrens' book cos its got dark undercurrents of menance and stuff, but it certainly sparked off my interest in anti-nuclear 'activism' (hahaha) - which was appropriate cos chernobyl was only a few years prior (at that point in time) and the books on the incident were just beginning to shape up. enough about me... note to self: must be more to the point and avoid going into long asides again!
great i think i lost the point of my post. ermmm... you do understand it, dont u?
ooh ruminative posts. havent had a particularly rosy week, almost everything that could go wrong DID! groan...
not much time this weekend, as ive already previously commented in last week's posts... really sorry (i should stop saying that, its already beginning to irritate me) everyone cos im soooooooooo zonked/zombiefied - i think its about 3 wks of little-to-no-sleep and im really drained. not feeling particularly talkative/sociable, ull have to bear with me a little longer. 2 wks n then ill have more time to rest on weekdays (or so i think....) and hopefully ill be more like the person i used to be! gee...
was speaking about feeling so much older. read a popular advert in the papers about all these "the complete idiots guide to....... for teens" books going for a song (well not quite- still about $14..) and im like thinking, wow, i wouldve gone out n bought those books like a year or 2 ago if they were cheap then... but now its like dawning on me (again, dawning conveys the idea that i *just* began to realise, but thats not true- ive been pondering about this for almost a mth already) that im gonna make the transition to a twentysomething soon and what the @$#% am i doing with my life? read quarterlife crisis this mar (am amazed how i found the time to do that) (and actually on hindsight i shouldve just borrowed the book, it was like a result of surveying 10s of 1000s of twentysomethings about the kind of out-of-college-and-fresh-into-the-real-world of problems they were facing... i think thats the last nonsense book i bought. good little angelic me... been saving money buy avoiding my traditional book-buying splurges and borrowing books religiously instead..) and now - faced with the prospect of uni in (sigh) 2 yrs time - am realising that i noe nuts about the real world. am trying to borrow personal finance for dummies and some teach yourself personal finance book cos i realised i cant tell e diff between a savings and a current account (is there even a difference?) and i gotta start opening a bank account. crap... i feel like im growing up before my time's due.. partly due to the nature of my work (during the week) too. i kno what it means to just wanna stay young and childlike (not childish...... that i can maintain without anybody's help ^_^ ) forever. how i wish i was back in jc.... yr 1, when things were going so smoothly. not that im having immense problems now or anything, mind... i just feel that theres so much out there to learn and do, and back then, just 1-2 yrs ago these concerns never crossed my mind.
there certainly are perks to growing up: transiting to ever bigger n complicated n expensive toys, dealing with more income (now up to $712.something something wef this month ^_^ ... not a lot but okay enough for me to save n donate at the same time).. got this thing from the nus flyers about coms at a discount for students - all those sleek new macs (imacs and powerbooks and ibooks if i remember correctly) and even pdas... wow.
i guess, as with most things, this is just a mixed-feeling thing and im just voicing out, just for the fun of voicing it out. im not sure if any of u out there reading this is going thru this now, or, as i deeply suspect, most of u already have gone thru this - my mental age always lagging anywhere between 2-5 yrs behind my peers, i mean like hey i was still playing with robots last dec... and i will rummage in my toy chest again when i get the time ^_^ - but the main point is, as with quarterlife crisis, the idea that ure not facing this problem alone. at least thats something i got out of the book!
will be keeping my posts as short n sweet as possible (unlike me, hahahaha ^_^ ) so blogger doesnt log me out when im ready to post & publish!! thanks to jiaying for the notepad suggestion, but as ive commented on your blog its not very conducive for blogging cos thats where i used to do all my html whatsnots (im only a recent [<1.5 mths] convert to HTML text editors [things that colour the tags and make it easier for u to code... somewhat...] and an even more recent [<0.75 mths] convert to WYSIWYG HTML programs like dreamweaver, so ive been using notepad since, er... 95/96 just for html: old habits die hard, yeah? damn i feel old. that's another subject for another post, tho.) if i wanted to save my stuff actually i should use word.. but then thats no different from doing an offline soft-journal like people used to do, right? IMHO i think the blogger interface is nice n conducive to typing, if not for the unfortunate logging-out problem. maybe i should feedback to pyra about this. (i think im gradually becoming so much more active/assertive.. would never have even *thought* of feedback-ing or even emailing people i never knew, other than tech support when i had an insane problem with my old HP jornada 690when it just couldnt dialup to connect... anyway my dad uses my jornada now - its the old model that still had a keyboard and boy is the keyboard useful... the most irritating thing about pocketPCs is the hunt-n-peck method of typing on the on-screen keyboard. *seethe* and ive sorta upgraded to a palm m125.)
aside: im terribly sorry to all my blogging frens cos i *still* havent put your blogs up on the links section which actually should be on the left bar........... and also u MUST let me noe if u dun want me to refer to u/ur blog by name alright? admin headaches....... *groan*
can somebody pls tell me why so many pages seem to support ie rather than netscape/mozilla? and i thought the browser wars were over aeons ago... mmhrmm. actually im guilty of it myself: e early testing versions of my (failed) layout worked fine n dandy in CoffeeCup HTML Editor which was running ie as an internal browser... and came out as a garbled buncha text in mozilla. and all i was doing was elementary CSS, nothing fancy!! *sigh* i guess thats why u need things like dreamweaver to actually be able to do anything that looks remotely designed without resorting to having a mess of tables.
7.14.2002
having many many computer problems: it just keeps crashing n now i cant print the stuff im supposed to be working on. HELP!
song now: liberty x's "thinking it over"
i know this is tacky but its vaguely interesting........ right?
ha ha ha!
pet cows? what's next?
i can imagine where this is heading: GMphobes will start saying this is evil etc etc- reminds me of the bonsai kitty hoax a few years back (anyone remember that? i forgot the link n dunno if it still exists, esp with all the controversy it generated..) when in fact it doesnt have the slightest connection with GM... its just normal domestication/ selective breeding (shades of A level bio, anyone?), the selfsame process which gave us pigs from wild boars (groan- been tormented by wildboars in the woods last wed)... etc.
some discussion pls, people... ^_^
hahahaha on power98 now: Belinda Carlisle's "Heaven is a Place on Earth"... hahaha memories of social night... "the girls will start screaming when they hear this song n everybody will start dancing!!" yeah right!! ^_^ not bad nevertheless....
blog update: not getting any work done im afraid, and somehow today's posts just arent being published. i wonder why.. crap. unable to load template file... but i never had problems with it before and i havent changed it since. what gives?
Belinda Carlisle - "Heaven is a Place on Earth"
When the night falls down
I wait for you
And you come around
And the world's alive
With the sound of kids
On the street outside
When you walk into the room
you pull me close and we start to move
And we're spinning with the stars above
And you lift me up in a wave of love ...
Ooh baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
When I feel alone
I reach for you
And you bring me home
When I'm lost at sea
I hear your voice
And it carries me
Tn this world we're just beginning
To understand the miracle of living
Baby, I was afraid before
But I'm not afraid anymore
Ooh baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
thats pretty scary: i almost lost that semilong post. from now on im REALLY gonna do everything in notepad or some other little texteditor... groan. okay time to get back to work (*sigh*) hopefully ill be able to post something meaningful before i leave my com for a week again.
busy weekend... helluva lot of work next wk n prep spills over to the weekend. wont be having much time in the next month or so, according to the schedule/timetable... so loyal fans (ho ho ho funny joke) just bear with me, as long as im home i promise to write at least ONE post ok...? any time i have on the com will be a luxury so im sorry if i dont have much time to attend to u while online. try msgg me- if im not camping in the great outdoors then by about 2300 u should get a reply!
anyway seeking inspiration from web design books: borrowed one on typography (the use of type: FONT FACE etc, tho i do mean more of design, like what design houses do with Pagemaker etc... ) and another one on revolutionary design. totally impressed, and anyhow when im away from the com this keeps me firmly rooted in thinking about revamping the site. its been forthcoming for a very long while and probably will still! rest assured im still working on it... actually thinking of maybe when im free (ha ha ha) making a whole lot of diff layouts at one shot n loading them on the server in diff directories (so ill be changing both my brinkster page as well as my blog at the same time) so all i need to do is rename the index to point to the layout i want for, say, that month or something. idea?
i also know i owe a lot of posts/scans etc... yearbook's out, im *supposed* to scan - if not for my own posterity then at least so i can pin up something on the noticeboard in my room (not the one at home, natch!) other than all the clubby/ dance music/club ads [NB ads with CRED okay... i try to avoid the really cheesy ones...] i got off JUICE Singapore. possible list of stuff to add (plus minus): the 'Blythe' Sony MD ad from Muzik, some old (and therefore memorable) neoprints, photos... gee thats not very much, now, is it?
7.06.2002
great. i got logged out without knowing it and just lost the longest post ive ever written. hooray!
learning dreamweaver from scratch now.. will be locked up coming up with another new layout and coming to terms with the dreamweaver interface. gotta rethink the design now that theres so much more flexibility... but given the pain in creating a template i may just sort out my homepage before aligning this template to fit. will be adding the links soon- terribly sorry!!
in my head: Basement Jaxx "Get Me On". oh yeah. *bobs head up n down*
lost a blog entry i posted late last night cos e com crashed on me *again*.. rambling on and on and not making much sense. on second thots, maybe that wasnt such a loss after all!
now that the scanner's back from the workshop - can u believe this, the motor was connected the wrong way around so the belt kept churning the CCD assembly all the way to the end of the scanner... i dun claim to be an electrician or something but theres only so much u can do when there are like 5 diff coloured wires running into the little motor and u have no idea what does what.. which could be the reason why the workshop took a look at it and decided to give me a brand new set.. lmao... will be installing it asap. HUGE backlog of stuff im supposed to scan..... including some really wacky stuff from my bangkok trip (i still owe these blog entries...), and some pix thats supposed to go up in my room and into the photo album on my palm. - but i cant quite figure out how to synchronise the MGI photosuite for palm... oh man.
now playing on radio: Sheryl Crow's "My Favourite Mistake". think the cardigans made something like that- "My Favourite Game" which im still nuts over. still apt tho.. *sheds little tear*
Sheryl Crow - "My Favourite Mistake"
I woke up and called this morning
The tone of your voice was a warning
That you don't care for me anymore
I made up the bed we sleep in
I looked at the clock when you creep in
It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone
[Chorus]
Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I was just beginning
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake
Your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game
Now here comes your secret lover
She'd be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames
Chorus
You're my favorite mistake
Well maybe nothin' lasts forever
Even when you stay together
I don't need forever after
It's your laughter won't let me go
So I'm holding on this way
Did you know, could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
Now everything's so wrong
Did you see me walking by?
Did it ever make you cry?
You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake
food for thot!
7.05.2002
back early this weekend to compensate for the next few weeks which will be terribly rushed.. =( okay this is more of a temporary blog entry, think Avril Lavigne's "Complicated" is the best thing on radio this week... probably the next big thing (fine, i could be wrong).. but definitely in the same category as the 2nd generation teen pop sensations (read 2nd gen britneys...) like michelle branch and vanessa amarossi who write, sing and play their instruments..... score one for credibility!! found this Which Avril Lavigne Song are YOU? quiz. neat stuff! this is *so* me........ Cor.
Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?
7.01.2002
just in case nobody noticed (yes its rather sad to be doing this): the little link to the right of the timestamp (not the time, ok?) is the comments link. uh, to add comments n stuff. ^_^
okay must really run now else ill be late - will try to think up a good design n hopefully implement it this weekend, when i *may* have a little more time. till then!
ah yes i recall the song which i was thinking of- a bit overplayed now, apologies to all for stooping to something rather mainstream-popular, but i kinda liked it from before it became prominent: Dirty Vegas' "Days Go By". theme for last week!
Dirty Vegas - "Days Go By"
You
You
You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
its kinda incredible how this song's charting on, of all things, Rick Dees' Weekly Top 40... which is also like a month or 2 late from the states. come to think of it, its always sublime when something uve heard when its still a distant blip on the music radar suddenly makes it big - esp on local radio. like royksopp's "Poor Leno", which i *always* thought was some cheesy euro track called borleno or something. hard to believe theyre the people who did the too-good-for-words mix of the Kings of Convenience's "I Don't Know What I Can Save you From"... ouch. or that other one- i forgot who did it- but its the really cheesy sounding one on WKRZ913, "Sunglasses at Night"...
so brazil won... ho hum. does anybody remember this massmail being bounced around about adding/subtracting the years of the world cups etc etc so all the countries which won the world cup got this particular number that corresponds to the year in which they won the world cup... hence brazil should win this year? itd be much more fun if i could paste it here but ive long since deleted the mail... hrmmmm. =|
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