9.12.2006

 

[sea change]

consciousness is a really strange phenomenon: you can be aware of separate little facts but not quite see how they're connected - they just sit idly there, points of blinking light on a dark sky. all of a sudden, something changes: you acquire a new factoid, or just randomly see something happening, and everything falls into place. lines appear in the nothingness, constellations appear from the once random jumble.

too many things have happened since the last post that i can't possibly document them all. ive changed, matured, changed, and then changed some more. it's true that i'm constantly in a state of flux, but it's also time i became more mature and assumed more responsibility over my own actions for a change - rather than just assuming the responsibility for others. i daresay im good with other people, but absolutely rubbish when it comes to myself. (self sacrificial? lol)

so yes. i've decided i need to be more disciplined - to make the most of the very privileged situation im in (academic, social, etc), so that i can keep and protect all that is near and dear to me. it's going to be difficult, but i can't make any more excuses for myself. the past day i havent done anything much, but i know im only making excuses for myself; no more. a new me, once again. :)

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on a very different note,

Madonna - Little Star

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Never forget who you are
Little star
Never forget how to dream
Butterfly

God gave a present to me
Made of flesh and bones
My life, my soul
You make my spirit whole

Never forget who you are
Little star
Shining brighter than all the stars in the sky
Never forget how to dream
Butterfly
Never forget where you come from
From love

You are a treasure to me
You are my star
You breathe new life
Into my broken heart

Never forget who you are
Little star
Never forget how to dream
Butterfly

May the angels protect you
And sadness forget you
Little star

There's no reason to weep
Lay your head down to sleep
Little star

May goodness surround you
My love I have found you
Little star

Shining bright

You breathe new life
Into my broken heart

Never forget who you are
(Whispered:) Little star
Shining brighter than all the stars in the sky
Never forget how to dream
Butterfly
Flying higher than all the birds in the sky

Never forget who you are
Little star
Never forget where you come from
From love

Little star
Little star
(Whispered:) Little star
From love

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