2.12.2003

 

trying to make the most of my life as it is now.. things are beginning to look up, a little, tho its certainly still too early to tell how things will be in future, so im still keeping my expectations horrifically low (ie that going home is a bonus). heck, was understudying the DO yesterday - and therefore only came back home today, missing out on what wdve been a nice night at home - not that i wdve been home any earlier, since i was working til 2200+. good grief, everybody seems to be a workaholic here.. bumped into jianhong while leaving for home today, he was on duty today.. pleasant surprise, since i really din expect to bump into anybody i remotely knew in here, and so far that makes 3 people i know in the entire complex - not in my direct unit though. i guess trying times make you learn to appreciate all the small little things in life.

not expecting to be home on fri, and come mon the 17th we jump into an exercise for the entire week. that doesnt preclude the requisite early morning exercise and compulsory runs on tue/thu/sat. before i stop groaning - i failed my obstacle thing by a very large margin cos i had trouble scaling the wall. incidentally ive never had any problem with the wall before.. then again i magically managed the monkey bars on this set of obstacles. strange!

getting virtually nothing else done in the meantime.. simply too tired when i crawl home. will try hard not to let the mood spill over into the blog - then again wasnt the whole idea of a blog to get things off your chest? heck my mind is bleary. wont be making any plans to learn driving anytime soon or even make social plans til life is more stable - ie at least til april, and that only marks the end of induction (cue tons of beer... *tiger* beer. ickkkkkkkk) and doesnt include getting into the flow of things. i seriously doubt the possibility of staying out given the way my first 2 days on attachment/understudy in my projected position (not firmed up yet until april, again, so i better prove my worth) have gone. i mean if i finish at 2300 then theres really not much point going home if i have to be back the next day by 0600 right? hope to be proven wrong. somehow that din come out right!

Kid Rock ft Sheryl Crow - Picture

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[Kid Rock]
Livin' my life in a slow hell
Diff'rnt girl every night at the hotel
I aint seen the sun shine in 3 damn days
Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried the day
I can't look at you, I'm lyin' next to her
I put your picture away, sat down and cried today
I can't look at you I'm lyin' next to her

[Sheryl Crow]
I called you lastnight in the hotel
Everyone knows but they wont tell
But their half hearted smiles tell me
Somethin' just ain't right
I been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I saw ya yesterday with an old friend

[Kid Rock]
It was the same old same "how have you been"

[Both]
Since you been gone my worlds been dark & grey

[Kid Rock]
You reminded me of brighter days

[Sheryl Crow]
I hoped you were comin' home to stay
I was head of the church

[Kid Rock]
I was off to drink you away

[Both]
I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say, I love you come back home

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its quite a long, slow country song but its really nice esp at the end, the last two lines when everything goes super slow. awww. happy v-dae all!

ps i passed basic theory! hooray!

pps i was actually quite scared id fail since there were an alarming number of *thinking* questions not covered in the basic theory book... so there. what wd people think of me if id failed? *shudder*

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