10.20.2006

 

[losing it]

some days, everything just doesn't seem right. it's just one of those days, to borrow the title of athlete's very very apt (and one of my favourite!) songs. well, here's another really apt song that's one of my favourites.


The Cardigans - My Favourite Game

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I don't know what you're looking for
you haven't found it baby, that's for sure
You rip me up and spread me all around
in the dust of the deed of time

And this is not a case of lust, you see
it's not a matter of you versus of me
It's fine the way you want me on your own
but in the end it's always me alone

And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my baby
losing my favourite game

I only know what I've been working for
another you so I could love you more
I really thought that I could take you there
but my experiment is not getting us anywhere

I had a vision I could turn you right
a stupid mission and a lethal fight
I should have seen it when my hope was new
my heart is black and my body is blue

And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my favourite game
I've tried but you're still the same
I'm losing my baby
you're losing a saviour and a saint

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10.08.2006

 

[the first step is always the hardest]

it's the first weekend of term. one lecture, one seminar, 2 pages of references to go thru. i've got all the materials and papers ready and organised. but for some reason i just can't bring myself to start. there's something about a blank piece of paper that just stops me from writing on it.

it's probably just procrastination rearing it's ugly head again. i'm motivated, i'm interested in what i'm doing - maybe it's the fear of failure. that i don't want to write something that i'm going to have to change in a short while (but that's the whole point!!!) hmmm. well, i can't go on living my life like that. this changes, now.

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