11.24.2003

 

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seems like an eternity since i last blogged. you know how it is - when youre busy you just don't have the time to blog. then things add up at a phenomenal rate (since you're busy lots of things must have happened right?) and before long there's such an enormous backlog you just don't feel compelled to pen any of it down anymore.

on the other hand, it also means that ive more or less been cured of my blog addiction. it's certainly been months since i last checked *anybody's* blog (yes indeedy, i have been that busy) so forgive me cos im extremely out of date on what any of you have been doing!

ill just focus on one thing, the central thread behind most of whatever's happened, anyways. ive been gravitating towards the telecommuting lifestyle - the one in which you can work anytime, anyplace, surf the web from wherever, yadda yadda. only that i don't have a wireless card, nor do i intend to buy one anytime soon (broadband is ubiquitous in cam but, strangely enough, not wireless access. another one of those eternal mysteries of life..)

so in the past month and a half, ive taken apart my old notebook - and i do mean down to component level - cos it was malfunctioning, become a sim lim kid, bought a second hand laptop for $1400 against the advice of just about everybody who had an opinion, decided on the spur of the moment to plonk another $700 on repairing the old one after the manufacturer offered to buy it back from me for $50.. and then tried [trying!] to sell off the secondhand laptop, since new ones are only about $2199. that's been quite an adventure.. esp navigating the depths of online auctions. also against the advice of everybody who had an opinion.

i can safely conclude that i am nowhere nearer to adulthood than i was a year ago. normally that's a good thing, but knowing that i no longer have the benefit of one more year to actually become independent makes it a very bad thing.

recieved my first personal invitation to a wedding dinner, somehow it's very different when you're the one that's invited and not your family as a whole. it makes you feel so much older (NOT necessarily grown-up) .. and poorer, too. i won't soon forget how some of my friends and colleagues are scraping the barrel to come up with cash for the customary red packets. that aside, it's also a time when all the friendster links come out - when you realise that you actually know so-and-so's friend/cousin/etc. the dinner itself was quite a big thing - 30+ or 40 tables. i quite doubt that i have that many friends!

on the other hand, im also feeling very christmas-sy. put up the tree with all the decorations - admittedly, not much, but its the thought that counts - for the first time in a decade or so. it's the first time in that long that i'll be home for xmas, and it's also likely to be the last time in many more years to come.

Nelly Furtado - Powerless (Say What You Want)

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Paint my face in your magazines
Make it look whiter than it seems
Paint me over with your dreams
Shove away my ethnicity
Burn every notion that I may have a flame inside to fight
And say just what is on my mind
Without offending your might

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want

I saw her face outside today
Weatherworn, looking all the rage
They took her passion and her gaze and made a poster
Now it's moccasins we sport
We take the culture and contort
Perhaps only to distort what we are hiding

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
But say what you want
Say what you want

Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in, get in
Hey you, the one that don't fit in, how ya, how ya gonna get in
Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in with your
Broken teeth, broken jaw, broken mojo
Yeah, this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

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